Today is my 58th birthday. For the most part it’s like any other day.
Some of what will occur throughout the day I have plans for. Other events will simply occur.
Outwardly today is like any other day.
But on a deeper level this day is different. It is one in which I feel I have more wisdom than in years past.
The wisdom did not come without a price.
It is the wisdom of knowing I really don’t know what life has in store for me. It is the wisdom of knowing the best thing to do is take life as it comes and flow with each day. It is the wisdom of knowing whether something appears to be good or bad it is all part of the tapestry of life. It is the wisdom of knowing my response to what happens is up to me and not the situation.
On an intellectual level I have known this for many years. Yet, it’s one thing to know something intellectually and something completely different to know this in my soul.
Memories serve us
As I woke this morning memories of my birthday three years ago flashed in my mind. It was then, on my 55th birthday, I decided to do something I had thought about doing for many years; train for a marathon. Not as a runner, but as a power walker.
True to my nature, I immediately poured my heart and soul into the training. I loved the feeling of pushing myself in this way.
All in life was great. That is until life had a completely different plan for me.
The shift from “all was great” to life turning completely upside down happened in an instant.
For the next nearly 2 1/2 years I experienced great loss from my father’s passing, incredible exhaustion due to answering a personal calling that required I travel back and forth countless times between my home in Oregon and my mom’s home and bedside in California, my mother’s passing a few short months ago, dealing with some of our animals getting deathly ill and one passing on and other such experiences.
There were times I wondered if I would have the energy to keep up with all that was occurring. Yet, each day I would get up and do what was in front of me. I didn’t have the time or energy to do much else.
The point of power was when I would surrender and ask for the guidance and strength to get through another day.
One day led into the next and the next and the next until here I am three years later incredibly grateful for the depth of knowledge I gained from each and every experience.
Divine intervention at work
As I reflect on the past few years I am in awe that, in spite of my life feeling completely upside down much of the time, there was (and is) a deep level of serenity I experienced when I simply trusted the process.
I am also in awe of the fact my business never floundered. In fact, it grew. I truly believe I was given the right ideas at just the right time to adjust how my business was structured. This allowed me to fully serve my market while taking care of family needs.
I suppose when I was my most vulnerable I was also my most teachable and receptive. This I know to be true; life takes on very deep meaning and joy when we surrender to why we are here.
I would be remiss not to share a bit about how it was possible for me to take so much time to be there for family.
The most important reason is because I knew this was what I was meant to do.
I never asked, “Why is this happening to me.” Rather I would give thanks I was able to be present for what was occurring.
Secondly, my business afforded me the opportunity to do the things that were most important.
However, it wasn’t just having the business that allowed this opportunity. Had I not trusted the guidance I received to structure things the way I did things likely would have turned out very differently.
Our business as a vehicle
The fact is, our businesses are simply a vehicle to touch the lives of those we are meant to. This happens on many levels.
We impact our customers and clients by providing them with products and services to improve their personal and professional lives. We provide for our families in a way they have comfort and safety. We provide for our communities through the donations we make and the time we offer in service. We provide for our animals a life they likely take for granted.
As the prayer of St. Francis so eloquently states, “Lord, make me an instrument.”
What I love most about this prayer is people from all walks of life, many faiths, religions and beliefs find power in it.
My life is incredibly blessed in ways I never would have imagined. To the core of my soul I am grateful for the people who have walked this journey with me and to all those who held me up when I needed it most.
When we surrender to our purpose we are able to more fully do all we came here to do.